‘I’m Very Thankful for All the Bad Things in my Life’

 Right.

Isn’t that what scripture says…we are to be thankful to God for all things…good and bad?

 Last night, probably for the first time in my life, I actually was thankful to God for the bad things in my life. It was such a strange feeling. I really felt thankful about the bad stuff knowing that God was somehow using all this pain and suffering for a good purpose.

I’ve gotta be truthful (well, I don’t have to be ), usually when I thank God for the bad stuff I really don’t mean it. I do it because we are suppossed to do it. Now, I know that He knows that I don’t mean it, but I figure…what’s the harm in saying it anyway?

But last night it was different.I really meant it. But it came and went so fast it would make your head spin.  A flicker, and then it was gone. It was a real comfort to me for that brief moment. A glimpse (maybe) of what trusting God is all about.

Will that real trust in God return to me? I can’t really say. Part of me doesn’t want it to. That would mean that the pain would still be there from my broken life and the broken lives of my family.

Is it wrong to actually want to trade trust in God for a pain free life?

Do you ever have similar contradictions in your walk of faith?

Thanks.

                  – Steve

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